i hate nose bleeds

today... none other on christmas day.... i had the worst nose bleed in my intire life.... it literally lasted about 30-40 minutes.... it sucked... i mean yea im normally used to nose bleed cus i get them every once in a while... my blood vessels are larger than normal in my nose so sometimes i get them quite randomly.... but this just sucked.... at first people told me to lay on the ground and tilt my head back... i done that even though your not supposed to, cus it makes the blood go back into your throut( which it did, and ill talk about that later) then i was told to sit up and have my head down. so i do that and im just sitting in the bathroom at my aunts house for about 20 minutes or more, my back starts to hurt and my neck achs... and i just sit there bored out of my mind... i can feel the blood moving around in my nose, and every time i put my head over the sink and release pressure to change toilet paper and to see if it stopped yet its like a damn water fall and the blood just gushes out..... finally when i get home about 40 minutes later (or maybe even more, i didnt really keep track of time its just a rough estimate) it finally is stopped mostly... i try and clear my throut and i just spit out huge chunks of blood, cus there was so much of it stuck in my throut......... i hate nose bleeds......

last post probably for awhile

our internet is getting shut down so i wont be able to post here that often... just saying .... dont got much else to say

hey its late, and im not tired

its now 2 o'clock in the morning and i just got home from work. yay... and im not really that tired... so i got on here... work was fun around i think it was 9 or 10, and school bus of people came in, a huge group from blanchester. so for like thirty minutes we were pretty busy, we were lurky that the drive through was just about empty throughout that time. we only got like 4 or 5 cars while the 30 to 40 people from blan was up front... so what could have lasted an hour or more only lasted about 30 minutes. well im going to play a few games of starcraft... bye

hey im bored

im bored... im just killing time on the computer(even though theres other things i could be doing that i probably should be doing, like laundry or my dad wanted me to pull one more part of the celica so i can add it to my car...) but im just bored... i just got done reading rachels blog... "i am psycho"... that art site that she has linked on her post has some really cool stuff.... it has some cool anima art and in the archives some wierd looking chinese chick (i think chinese) in black makeup just doing wierd poses, there was like 2 or 3 pictures of her that i seen. it was wierd. that circle of fate pic was cool. yay i get to work today!!! im closing, i also closed yesterday (didnt half too, but they asked me and david to close with them, so i said why not i could use the extra hour...) oh oh oh i just remembered... something funny that happened... we have headsets to talk to each other... so when i was on break i was listening to the radio and ice ice baby was on the radio... i played it over the headset... (not the funny part yet) then when david went on break the song barbie world was on and he played it over the intercom and he played it to the car that was outside waiting to order... dawn (our maneger) was getting a little mad).... then that song was stuck in my head for the next hour and i was sitting there singing it.. at lest the parts that i know...." im a barbie girl, in a barbie world -- something something-- its fantastic" then "comeon barbie, lets go party... aw aw oh yay" it was pretty cool. im wondering whos going to close tonight... we should have a couple of people... because i dont regularly close and i dont know how to close everything... i know how to close the sandwich station, grill, most of the dining room, fry staion, and most of the cordination station....well actually now that i think about it... i do know how to close down most the store... but id rather have some more help that way we can get out early like we did last night, at like 1:20....i got two free spicy chickens yesterday to.. im going to go eat them now... so bye..

the human mind can be evil sometimes

i know that thinking is supposed to be good. to be smart you would need to think, but sometimes thinking can really be evil... your mind plays tricks on you and it drives you insane. you tell your mind to shut up but it only gets louder. its like the big bully in school but instead of being able to ignore him/her or defend yourself, your left defenceless against your mind, cus its always there.... always laughing always taunting. sending images through your mind that you just want to forget, but it just wont let you... i hate it sometimes when my mind wanders, cus some of the stuff that gets in there is just evil wrong things, i know that they are so i try and forget but it just wont let me. i sometimes just go insane. i even push away my best of friends when they try and help (but thats my loner side coming back up, i'd rather deal with my problems myself then spread them, cus thats what i've done my whole life.)

i've lost my train of thought (phone rang), and plus i should be starting to get ready for work... well c ya

hey whats up... works "fun"

today at work a new guy just basically walked out on us in the middle of his shift... he was sceduled to work to close (which is normally around 1:30 a.m. or later) he left at around 8:30 p.m. We dont know why.... our manager was just like hey where's *his name* (i dont even know his name), everyone was like i dont know... i was on post-rush taking out the trash and dawn (our big manager person, 2nd underneath steve) ask me if i seen him out side... i told her no of course cus i didnt see him.. so the next 2 hours we are having fun trying to run the store with 4 people... it can be done late night when the dinning rooms closed but if its not closed we need at lest 5 people to run fairly smoothly. and they are still doing it right now.(have fun dawn, lee, and debie? (i cant remember if that was her name))but they should be some what fine now... some other guy that works at a different wendy's came in to help as i was leaving, cus he was called in to help, and my brother went back up there to help out cus he used to work there..... though another thing, when the guy left (he was on grill at the moment, and i took over that position) the grill looked disgusting.... carbon build up over the whole grill... the thing was black. and dried blood every where at that station. it took me about 30 minutes to make it look good. of course it always looks good when i run grill... thats my best position.( sandwiches are my fav, but grill is my best) i made that grill look silver again... it was a scary site

and yay im getting my raise in a couple of weeks(lest i should be...better be.)( my friend was supposed to get his raise at the beginning of november but he said he still hasnt got it yet)


well thats all i have to say c ya