the human mind can be evil sometimes

i know that thinking is supposed to be good. to be smart you would need to think, but sometimes thinking can really be evil... your mind plays tricks on you and it drives you insane. you tell your mind to shut up but it only gets louder. its like the big bully in school but instead of being able to ignore him/her or defend yourself, your left defenceless against your mind, cus its always there.... always laughing always taunting. sending images through your mind that you just want to forget, but it just wont let you... i hate it sometimes when my mind wanders, cus some of the stuff that gets in there is just evil wrong things, i know that they are so i try and forget but it just wont let me. i sometimes just go insane. i even push away my best of friends when they try and help (but thats my loner side coming back up, i'd rather deal with my problems myself then spread them, cus thats what i've done my whole life.)

i've lost my train of thought (phone rang), and plus i should be starting to get ready for work... well c ya