i'm not really sure if this is good or bad???

well for this whole week so far i've been out of town. ever since sunday. i've been at a show choir camp thats up in tiffin OH and it's basically for good musicians and dancers... then before this week i was rehersing for a concert i was in for may fest... we sang as guest performers at riverbend for a star wars concert with erich kunsel... now after this week the may fest is starting to have rehersal for another performance at riverbend starting on the 18... its performance name is night on broadway. well thing is now that i'm doing all these more advanced musical experiences i'm realising how little i know musically, and some of its just simple stuff that i should have known for a long time now...and i'm planning to be a teacher... thats funny... i'm kinda wondering if thats a good idea for me... if i should go the course and see what happens or if i should try to find something else that i could do? though musics my life, i'm not much of a soloist performer but i love to sing on stage in a big group... but then again i'm not that much of a teacher... i am horrible at explaining things... or really even talking out loud. so i wonder... a think i'll talk to mrs. barton about this, see if she was ever uncertain about being a teacher... i dont know... this is really kinda depressing... it just fells like i'm at a hault in my life and i dont know what to do... and it doesnt help that i'm 3-4 hours from home...and thers other thoughts right now about this subject that pains me even more when i think about it. well i have to go... our first rehersal for the day is in 15 minutes...