what the hell is going on in my head

i hate my mind sometimes... my thoughts.... pictures that form in my mind.... sometimes they drive me insane... its crazy.... the voices... it's like a war within myself and i'm in the middle of it....

yesterday i was at work and for some reason i got pissed off...i dont even know why i was pissed off... which actually kinda scared me... cus i dont really ever remember a time when i didnt know WHY i'm pissed was off, cus i normally know why im pissed off... i just dont tell people.... when they ask whats wrong i tell them nothing.... but yesterday i purely had no idea why i was pissed off. i was just ticked....

then today why mind wondered and depressed me..... i was happy and fine the first half of work (but just bored) and then the last half after my thoughts start to take over i was depressed and miserable... why the hell does my mind fuck me up so much..... i dont know.....it plays tricks on me.... hides feelings from me... make me feel like shit...